the berserk healer

a private & selective CHARACTER from FFXIV, as written and loved by kev-el.a study in the something, the unknown, the wacky, and crying over genshin's lore more than likely. write whatever you'd like here.

regulations


  •  LANGUAGE RP:   — User manage to talk both language (Spanish / English) either of them are confortable to use.

  •  LONG TERM RP:   — looking for characters to play a reoccurring role in each other's lives and stories. I am not necessarily looking to RP daily or weekly, but I would like to create an ongoing story and relationship.

  •  PARA RP.  — primarily a para-RPer (drifting between semi-para and multi-para as the scenario warrants, and to mirror to some degree). I would love to find others who have a passion for writing as an art.

  •  IN-GAME RP.  — looking for in game RP on the NA Data Centers. I would like to establish some rapport in game before doing any Discord RP, but I'm not opposed later down the line.

  •  DYNAMIC RP.  — stories, action, adventure, horror, drama, mystery, intrigue, tension, conflict, plotlines, combat, DMed events--this is what I would love to find! I am not opposed to social, casual, and "tavern" RP; I just view them as a given with anyone with whom I am already RPing and want to aim beyond that.

  •  LORE-FRIENDLY RP.  — I view lore as a guideline and a world-building device, and not a rigid mold to shape my characters and stories. I prefer not to disregard lore, but I am not "lore strict," either. I am fine with bending lore for the sake of a more interesting character or more compelling story, or filling in the gaps where the lore hasn't provided info, but I do not enjoy lore being "broken" with concepts that go directly against the established lore, or that are too outlandish to fit within it. Down for "rule of cool" and on board with most concepts if you can write them well and not break the suspension of disbelief or make things unfun. I am most comfortable RPing with those who have a similar approach.


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character title


 NAME.. . . . . . . . . . Astraeia
 ALIASES.. . . . . . .  The Relentless, NEXUS BEING
 AGE.. . . . . . . . . . . . 137 yrs
 SPECIES.. . . . . . . . Viera - Venna
 BIRTHDAY.. . . . . . 08/14
 GENDER.. . . . . . .  She ( she/her )
 ORIENTATION.  pansexual
 LOCATION.. . . . . . Ishgard
 OCCUPATION.. . . dark arts master


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“Only once you know and respect death, can you truly understand the value of life”


personality

 MBTI.. . . . . . . . . . ,  mbti
 TEMPERMENT.  arrogant
 ALIGNMENT.. . . ,  alignment
 LIKES.. . . . . . . . . . .
Stargazing: Nexus finds solace and inspiration in observing the celestial bodies, seeking patterns and insights within their movements.
Forbidden Knowledge: She's drawn to ancient tomes and artifacts, fascinated by the forbidden and esoteric.
Solo Pursuits: Nexus enjoys solitary activities that allow her to focus without distraction, be it in intense studies or honing her combat skills.
Challenging Adversaries: She relishes facing formidable opponents, viewing each encounter as an opportunity to test her strength and strategies.
 DISLIKES.. . . . . . .
Ignorance: Nexus has little patience for those she deems intellectually lazy or lacking in ambition.
Rules and Traditions: She often clashes with conventional Viera customs and restrictions, preferring to forge her own path.
Incompetence: Nexus despises incompetence or indecisiveness, considering it a waste of potential.
Being Underestimated: She detests when others underestimate her abilities or intelligence, often reacting with hostility when challenged in this manner.
 HOBBIES.. . . . . . .  In their spare time, Nexus finds solace and rejuvenation in nature. They enjoy exploring the depths of the forests, taking long walks amidst the tranquil beauty of the wilderness. Nexus also finds joy in studying the stars, observing celestial patterns, and deciphering the secrets they hold. They are known to spend hours stargazing, finding inspiration and peace in the vastness of the cosmos.

apperance

 HEIGHT.. . . . . .  6'11
 HAIR.. . . . . . . . . light honey
 EYES.. . . . . . . . . of color ( pink & blue )
 BODY TYPE.  huge AMAZONIAN height
 OTHER.. . . . . . . any other physical features of note, you can write out more here



history & more

Nexus, born in the heart of the Golmore Jungle, was unlike many of her kin. From an early age, she exhibited an intense curiosity for the mystic arts that veered away from the traditional Viera path. Her fascination with the celestial movements led her to the study of astrology, delving deep into the cosmic energies that swirled above her home.As she grew, Nexus’s insatiable thirst for knowledge expanded beyond the stars. She sought out forbidden tomes and ancient artifacts, craving power and understanding that transcended the limits imposed upon her kind. This pursuit often took her to the darkest corners of the jungle, where she uncovered secrets long forgotten and dabbled in darker magics.Her innate affinity for the shadows drew her towards the path of the Dark Knight, wielding the forces of darkness as easily as she manipulated the constellations. This dual mastery granted her a formidable presence, blending the cosmic might of an Astrologian with the fierce prowess of a Dark Knight.Nexus’s personality, however, was as enigmatic as the cosmos she studied. Her demeanor often exuded hostility, a byproduct of her relentless pursuit of perfection and power. Arrogant and fiercely independent, she held little regard for traditional Viera customs, often clashing with the elders over her unorthodox practices.Her approach to life echoed her ENTJ nature—decisive, commanding, and unyielding. Nexus stood tall, her silvered gaze cold and calculating, showing little patience for those who failed to meet her standards.Yet beneath her aloof exterior lay a Viera fiercely dedicated to protecting her homeland. Her determination to safeguard the Golmore Jungle was unwavering, despite her unconventional methods and abrasive personality.In the midst of her cosmic studies and dark pursuits, Nexus stood as a paradox—a Viera of unparalleled might, shrouded in mystery, navigating the intricate balance between the forces of light and shadow.PREVIOUS NAME:In her previous Viera life, Nexus bore the name "Astraeia." This name resonated with the celestial focus that defined her existence—an homage to the stars and their cosmic mysteries. As Astraeia, she was revered among her kin for her unparalleled mastery of celestial arts and her unyielding dedication to preserving cosmic balance. Her name echoed through the ages, carried on whispers of reverence among those who sought guidance in matters transcending mortal understanding.PAST LIFE :Nexus's past life was shrouded in legends and whispers among the Viera elders. Born in an era long forgotten, she was said to have been a guardian of ancient cosmic knowledge, revered for her mastery of celestial arts. In her previous incarnation, she bore a different name but radiated the same indomitable spirit that defined her present existence.In that distant epoch, Nexus dedicated her life to deciphering the cryptic language of the stars, unlocking the mysteries hidden within their celestial dance. She communed with the cosmic energies, channeling their power to safeguard her people and the realms beyond.Her role transcended the boundaries of tradition, often challenging the established norms of her time. This rebellion against the status quo was born from her insatiable thirst for knowledge and her unyielding dedication to preserving the delicate balance between light and darkness.Throughout her past life, Nexus confronted cosmic threats that imperiled the very fabric of existence, wielding the forces of the heavens to thwart cataclysms that threatened to plunge the realms into chaos. Her name became synonymous with wisdom and fortitude, whispered in reverence by those who sought guidance amid turbulent cosmic tides.Despite her valor and unwavering commitment to cosmic understanding, her past life ended abruptly in an enigmatic event shrouded in mystery. Legends diverged on the circumstances of her departure, some suggesting a voluntary ascension to a higher plane of existence, while others spoke of a sacrifice made to preserve cosmic equilibrium.Whatever the truth of her past life might be, Nexus's present incarnation retained echoes of that ancient legacy—a guardian of celestial secrets, wielding the arcane powers of the cosmos, and embodying a relentless pursuit of cosmic truths that transcended the boundaries of time itself.AGENexus, in her present incarnation, stands at the age of 137, a mere fraction of the cosmic cycles she's witnessed.She has transitioned from her former dwelling in Ishgard and now resides on the outskirts of the enchanted forest of Gridania, finding solace amidst the serene yet mystical ambiance of the Twelveswood. Here, among the rustling leaves and ancient trees, she continues her pursuit of cosmic understanding in relative seclusion.Currently, Nexus serves as a consultant and advisor to those seeking insight into celestial matters, offering her expertise in astrology and the esoteric arts. Her role allows her to delve into ancient lore, interpreting celestial patterns and aiding individuals or organizations who seek guidance or protection from cosmic forces. Additionally, she hones her skills as both an Astrologian and a Dark Knight, ever vigilant against threats that may emerge from the convergence of celestial energies and darker mysteries lurking within the shadows.
 PERSONALITY. 

  • Nexus possesses a complex personality that's as multifaceted as the cosmic energies she studies. Her hostile and arrogant demeanor stems from an unwavering confidence in her abilities, often leading her to dismiss those she perceives as inferior or incompetent. She exudes an aura of command, preferring to lead rather than follow, and holds herself to impossibly high standards.

  • Despite her abrasiveness, Nexus is fiercely loyal to her ideals and those she deems worthy of her respect. She values competence and determination, readily acknowledging those who demonstrate exceptional skill or dedication, albeit sparingly. Her interactions are often blunt and to the point, lacking the subtleties of social niceties.

  • TIMELINE

  • Birth as Astraeia: Born amidst the ancient groves of the Golmore Jungle, Astraeia came into the world with a natural affinity for the cosmos and a thirst for celestial knowledge.

  • Cosmic Enlightenment: Astraeia spent decades delving into the mysteries of the stars, honing her skills in astrology and arcane arts, becoming a revered guardian of celestial wisdom among the Viera.

  • Protection of the Realm: She defended her homeland against cosmic threats, utilizing her mastery of celestial energies to avert cataclysms and protect the realms from cosmic imbalances.

  • Mysterious Departure: Legends diverged on the circumstances of Astraeia's departure from the mortal realm. Some tales spoke of her voluntary ascension to higher cosmic planes, while others hinted at a sacrifice made to maintain cosmic equilibrium.

  • Reincarnation as Nexus: Reborn into a new life as Nexus, she continued her pursuit of cosmic understanding, now dwelling in Ishgard and later relocating to Gridania.

  • Occupation as Consultant: Nexus took on the role of a consultant and advisor, offering her expertise in astrology and the esoteric arts, aiding those seeking guidance amidst cosmic uncertainties.

  • Mastery as Astrologian and Dark Knight: Embracing the paths of both an Astrologian and a Dark Knight, Nexus honed her skills in wielding celestial energies and delving into the darker, shadowy mysteries.

  • Relocation to Gridania: Seeking solitude and the mystical ambiance of the Twelveswood, Nexus moved to the outskirts of Gridania, continuing her studies in seclusion.

  • Continued Pursuit: To this day, Nexus persists in her pursuit of cosmic truths, offering her knowledge and protection while unraveling the enigmatic patterns woven within the celestial tapestry.

  • Each of these events has contributed to shaping Nexus's identity and legacy as a guardian of cosmic secrets and a wielder of celestial powers across different lifetimes and realms.

  • Transition to Ishgard: Following a period of intensive cosmic studies in her secluded abode within the Golmore Jungle, Nexus felt drawn to the lofty spires of Ishgard. Intrigued by the city's lore and its connections to ancient mysteries, she made the decision to depart from her familiar forest sanctuary.

  • Arrival in Ishgard: Nexus's arrival in Ishgard sparked curiosity and intrigue among the scholarly circles. Her unorthodox approach to celestial arts and her mastery of cosmic energies quickly garnered attention in the city known for its scholars and arcane pursuits.

  • Embrace of Ishgardian Culture: While maintaining her independence and unconventional methods, Nexus found herself immersing in the rich tapestry of Ishgardian knowledge. She engaged with fellow scholars and practitioners, exchanging insights on celestial phenomena and arcane traditions.

  • Consultation and Expertise: Nexus's reputation as a cosmic expert grew within Ishgard, attracting individuals seeking guidance in matters pertaining to celestial alignments and cosmic portents. Her consultations became sought after among both scholars and adventurers seeking insights into the mysteries of the heavens.

  • Integration and Departure: Despite finding a niche within Ishgard's scholarly community, Nexus's pursuit of cosmic truths led her to seek a different kind of solitude. Sensing a calling from the mystic energies of the Twelveswood, she eventually chose to depart from Ishgard, seeking a more serene environment to further her studies.

  • This phase of Nexus's life in Ishgard served as a pivotal chapter, allowing her to share her celestial expertise while delving into the city's ancient knowledge. However, her journey continued, drawing her toward a new realm of spiritual exploration and cosmic revelations within the embrace of the Twelveswood.

  • In Nexus's journey, her involvement with the Dancer job intertwined with her quest for cosmic understanding in an unexpected manner:

  • Encounter with Dancer Lore: During her time in Ishgard, Nexus stumbled upon ancient manuscripts hinting at a connection between celestial rhythms and the enigmatic art of the Dancer. Intrigued by the references to cosmic motions reflected in the fluid movements of the Dancer, she delved deeper into this cryptic correlation.

  • Uncovering Celestial Harmony: Nexus's insatiable curiosity led her to explore the harmonic patterns echoed in both the celestial realm and the intricate dance forms of the Dancer. She discovered subtle, yet profound, parallels between the cosmic symphony she studied and the elegant motions of the Dancer.

  • Merging Cosmic Energies: Drawing inspiration from the celestial rhythms she unraveled, Nexus sought to merge her knowledge of astrology with the grace and precision of the Dancer's art. This fusion allowed her to perceive cosmic energies in a new light, utilizing the Dancer's motions as a conduit to channel celestial power in a unique manner.

  • Integration into her Practice: Nexus began to incorporate elements of the Dancer's movements into her own practice, finding a harmonious balance between her roles as an Astrologian, Dark Knight, and now, an adept in understanding the cosmic dance. The elegant steps of the Dancer became intertwined with her cosmic rituals, enhancing her connection to celestial forces.

  • Continued Exploration: Although her integration of the Dancer's art into her cosmic studies was profound, Nexus's journey persisted. Her mastery extended beyond conventional roles, forging a path that blended the cosmic, the arcane, and the fluidity of dance in her ongoing pursuit of cosmic enlightenment.

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